So the last year has been alot of adjustment. Learning how to live again. Learning how to enjoy things again. Learning how to smile a real smile again. There has been lots of emotions flying lots of ups and downs. I feel like I'm learning myself all over again. I'm living with my best friend. She has been my rock. I couldn't have made it to where I am without her love and support she truly is what defines a best friend. She never gave up on me and never let me down. She has done way more then anyone has ever done for me as a friend. Her kids have helped me too. My god babies. I love them so much. They have given me purpose too. They also wonder where the heck I am if I haven't been home in a while. Was told I was never aloud to leave that I could go for a while but I have to come back. I think the hardest part has been missing my grandsons. And being told I am not their nana anymore. It hurts alot. But my god kids I know will never be ripped from me. 
Life is full of lessons. Obstacles. Twists and turns. It changes when you least expect it. I have been on disability since 2009 and I'm a certified manager at mcdonalds again and working full time. Hope it works so I can stay and maybe eventually be able to get off ssd. But I'm tryin to take things slowly and make sure I can handle it. 
My life has been flipped and twisted in every direction and I can finally say I am in a good place.