Thursday, September 18, 2014
every once in a while
wouldnt it be nice if every once in a while your day could be stress free and simple? every day seems so filled with daily stressers, or depression, feelings of worthlessness, not feeling important enough for happiness, feeling like a failure. things are very hard, i dont really know why life has to be this way.. arent people suppose to be able to atleast enjoy some of their life? i mean sure there are happy moments and moments where we just put it in the back of our mind and act goofy to make ourselves or our friends/family feel better, but at the end of it all, those daily stressful things are right back in our face! its depressing and frustrating. some people wonder why some of us just dont try anymore with certain things, or dont trust anyone anymore, we hold everything in, we stay in the house and ignore the rest of the world, we would rather have friends online then in person... life sucks, and as i get older, it doesnt seem to get any better. so we sometimes dread the next day or the next week or a month or a year from now, because we dont want to know how much worse things can get or how much worse we can feel. but we dont have a choice, so we push on and we do the best we can to make through the day. i love my wife to be, and i am happy with her here with me, and that in itself makes me smile, but there are so many stressers in everyday life aside from the one person that makes me want to wake up in the morning. i fight my depression because i know that she wants me here and she needs me, just like she does the same because of me. but life is all about trial and error and sometimes it takes one person longer then the next to figure out how life is going to work for that person to survive and make it through. so there are times we all break down, we want to break stuff or punch things, or cry or hide in our room and just not be apart of the world, but we always need to remember that no matter how hard life is, we will, somehow, make it. and somehow, things will always be ok. things dont always happen the way we want or how we want, but it works out in its own way. i hope that one day life is easier for everyone. i hope we are able to afford things and live more comfortably again at some point but until then we have to be strong and keep pushing to make it through.